This year' plans

It is only the 12nd day in 2009 and i has so many plans to do in this whole year. Some people would say, why don't you arrange your plans before the new year? or may be "why don't you have any new year resolution be arranged earlier?"

So my answer is, Resolution??? what kind of animal is it? or is it the same with the thing that we have in monitor?

Man, i'm very excited to know that it's about 6 month left after the whole 6, what could i say, COLOURFUL and MEANINGFUL years, i'm going to leave all of this. My Class, Some of my friends, Situation where make me an adrenallin junky, Activities which make forget how to enjoy the holiday seasons properly and All the things that i will miss.

When people get at the point where i am, they usually have the answer when somebody ask them; "what speciality will you choose?" and their answer like obstetric, neurology surgery and bla..bla..bla...

Or else will ask, Will you continue right after your gradution or take your time and go to rural ?

At least i know that the quotation

" Life is about change, nothing is changing except the change itself" or

" Move or you'll be dead"

are true..

I thought i didn't have to write my plans, but now, i think i have to, Coz it'll help me remember the things that i have to do and the things that i wanna be.

From all the plans i've thought before, continue my study right after my graduation is on the bottom list, at least for now...

(hey, it's just a plan. I made the plans.. so, it's up to me to change it or not)

I have to Understand what this is all about? Is this all I want? What kind of life that i really.. really want..

Coz, when i decided to be a doctor, that was the decision that changed my life forever. Decision that many things influenced my mind.

Ok... I've chosen. I won't regret

But Now, What kind of doctor? is the Right Question.

And i want to choose in full sanity, awareness and responsibility.

GOD, please... HELP ME...

regards